Choking

Description: Because I've been having symptoms for months and now it's just getting worse and my chest and airways are starting to tighten up more than ever. They feel congested and clogged and it wasn't this extreme before, seemed gradual over time. I can only describe it as an invisible hand slowly starting to choke me but I don't feel it in my throat but in my chest, my heart, that area. To check for asthma or whatever this might be, can I go to the local clinic to check out what this might be or do I have to head to the hospital for this? I hate hospitals and check ups which is why I haven't gone in awhile but now this is just freaky. Gets worse when I lay down too. 10/10 answer, Nikki. No sh*t. Try reading it next time. Can a clinic check for these symptoms alone or do I NEED to go to a hospital? Jfc. Thank you but I didn't ask for the symptoms. I stated what I'm asking three different times, once in the additional details, again in the questions, and in the paragraph.. I mean I think it's a pretty simple question to answer if people know how to read on here.

Description: For about 3 or 4 days now, my throat has felt weird. It kinda feels swollen, or like someone is slighting choking me. It doesn't hurt, and i can eat and drink stuff normally but like it's super annoying. It's mostly bothersome at school, i go through baby panic attacks at school because i feel like i'm going to stop breathing. I'm only 14, and i don't smoke or anything. I'm a bit overweight but not majorly, what could this be? I don't want to go to the doctor quite yet, I do suffer from Health Anxiety could this be a symptom of Anxiety? Exams are coming up do i could be nervous about that, i don't know. I'm just very scared and worried.

Description: I feel like I have a colapsed lung can barely breathe and it feels like I have massive emounts of flem just climbing up my throat almost if I'm choking and there's at least a half a dozen people feeling just like I do what is the reason? Where freeezing crates of crab we put in one end of the tunnel and it comes out the other froozen and both sides looks alomst as there's smoke or frozt flying out in big clouds. Could this be deadly I went to my phisician about 2 months ago and he said I had broncitis And its only gotten worse what should I do I need a job I have a family to support but I meed my health too?????

Description: He had fell out of a nest( my guess trying to fly because he was pretty big) and my dog was trying to catch him. So when my mother caught him I made him a cage and collected some worms, bread and milk, berries and water as an attempt to nurse him back to health. today when I was holding him( very very delicately so not to hurt him) he was fine at first. He was gobbling up the worms all happy and such and he loved the bread and milk. Then he just dropped his head down and was dead. It makes me feel like I did something wrong, he didn't choke and seemed ok. I was just wondering if this has happened to anyone else. It was depressing..

Description: PLEASE READ FULL! I'm 25, 5'5'' female, average weight, don't drink or smoke or eat red meat. I don't exercise much, beside walk my dogs, and I over eat chocolate (But am stopping from this week on). I suffer from terrible anxiety, especially about my health, and suffer from depression. I had a virus/viral Infection back in late Jan, sore throat, coughing, runny/blocked nose etc. I went doctors a few times, also told it was a nasal problem. It was on/off for weeks and weeks, finally went away end of March. I lost my dearest dog of 13 years end of March also. I seemed to be okay for a few weeks, not even coughing. I've had a cough for a couple weeks on now, most times I force the cough, as I feel it clears my chestyness or crokay (like a donkey cough). Sometimes after taking a really deep breath in, then exhaling out, Ill hear a little whistling. Went doctors a week ago, about a discomfort under my breast and in my back, she told me it was Costochondritis. That also seems to have eased off over the last couple of days. Tonight though, I am in absolute terror after I read about Oesophagus Cancer! I am in a panic. My virus/viral infection was WEEKS ago!!! I know I force my cough sometimes, but seriously I'm so scared??? I nearly choked when I was 13, and I've always ate carefully, and if something is hard to swallow I take more care chewing it, and after reading this I am panicking its this cancer of the throat!!! I also had Tonsilitis back in 2011. Am I being paranoid or does it really sound like this CANCER??? Please I don't know what to do.

Description: Basically when I went to see my GP about my mental health, I just told him I was depressed and that I self harm. Didn't tell him about my paranoia and hallucinations. Mostly because I got nervous and choked. He prescribed me an anti-depressant (Paxil), and I have a follow up next month. I'm a lil concerned he'll write these symptoms off since I didn't mention them in the first meeting? How should I bring these up for discussion without sounding like I'm BSing them now? Thanks.

Description: My 11 Month old dog is sounding like she is choking. I think she is a chihuahua and poodle mix. She starts sounding like she will hack up something but it happens when she doesn't want to do something like go in the tub (think she acts that part) or when she goes outside or when company is around. My dad smokes too by the way but outside. Please tell me what this is. Don't hate I know go to the vet but I spent all my money

Description: PLEASE READ FULL! I'm 25, 5'5'' female, average weight, don't drink or smoke or eat red meat. I don't exercise much, beside walk my dogs, and I over eat chocolate (But am stopping from this week on). I suffer from terrible anxiety, especially about my health, and suffer from depression. I had a virus/viral Infection back in late Jan, sore throat, coughing, runny/blocked nose etc. I went doctors a few times, also told it was a nasal problem. It was on/off for weeks and weeks, finally went away end of March. I lost my dearest dog of 13 years end of March also. I seemed to be okay for a few weeks, not even coughing. I've had a cough for a couple weeks on now, most times I force the cough, as I feel it clears my chestyness. Went doctors a week ago, about a discomfort under my breast and in my back, she told me it was Costochondritis. That also seems to have eased off over the last couple of days. Tonight though, my throat started to feel sore, feels tight and I am in absolute terror after I read about Oesophagus Cancer! I am in a panic. I nearly choked when I was 13, and I've always ate carefully, and if something is hard to swallow I take more care chewing it, and after reading this I am panicking its this cancer of the throat!!! I also had Tonsilitis back in 2011. Am I being paranoid or does it really sound like this CANCER??? Please I don't know what to do.

Description: I had a dream that my two top canine teeth were very long and I couldn't close my mouth comfortably without them grazing my bottom gums. They eventually broke off but I accidentally choked on one, but I managed to cough it back up. Then I had two gaps where my canine teeth were. I know this is a strange dream but any interpretations? :)

Description: Hi, I live with my parents 30 yars old, still even a virgin , I have epilepsy seizures, that are 90% controlled but still get 2-10 per month I tied getting jobs after college BA degree , and the company let me go in 1 month, If I ever apply anywhere listing honest that I have epilepsy seizures, I never get a reply back, When I don't inform employers about my disability they may invite to interview and even got job some times. But they see seizures and call 911 , ONCE I'm awake active I can explain and tell no police or Fire department need to called, If I inform , about seizures anytime after getting job, MANY MORE PEOPLE SUFFER they lay off all part time workers for example , OR next time my do opposite, lay off all full time workers and take the part timers!! I CURRENTLY GET SOCIAL SECURITY TOTAL ABOUT $11,000 PER YEAR, AND SHARE BILLING EXPENSE AND DO HOME CLEANING AND LOAN WORK TO COVER THE RENT. remember I do have a BA degree Economics and Management Minor degree from University SO what should I do start searching for jobs again or stay on $11K year social security??

Description: I have a female holand lop who is big and chubby. I only feed her as much as I'm supposed to for her weight along with veggies. But when her food is gone for a few mins she will start eating her pine and slurping down water. And when I give her food she dives at it and starts eating it so fast that she snorts. Is that ok? She been like that since I got her.

Description: Okay do I started smoking like a few months ago and I choked like when I first started but then it was fine (yes I inhale lol) but for some reason, recently it makes me choke again? Why? Noo don't tell me to stop because I'm not gonna, I mean I will when I'm not such a f-cking idiot, and when I actually care about my health but I honestly don't give a f-ck about myself, thts kinda why I started, but anyway yaaa so how can i stop choking ? I wasn't like this before ? I just hate it, advice Omg I grew up with smokers my whole life and there just fine, I know smoking isn't good you don't have to tell me

Description: He goes nuts over them! He won't eat any other treats, happy now Kerri? (insert condescending ellipsis)

Description: I'm pretty sure I got alcohol poisoning on Friday. I was vomiting for a good 12 hours straight with diarrhea and was laid out till Sunday night with what felt like the stomach flu. I had to go back to work on Monday. But I still get horrible headaches and dizziness along with exhaustion most of the day I can't stand long without getting light headed Is this normal? Thank you :) Please keep rude comments to yourself.

Description: The Islamic Republic of Iran is the new world superpower. Iran is more powerful than the USA, Russia and China combined. I must be mad, you say. No, I am not mad or delusional. Iran's power can not be measured using traditional metrics such as global power projection, economic reach or diplomatic influence. Instead, when viewing Iran, it is necessary to measure the aforementioned metrics in the context of where Iran is located. Iran is situated geographically in the choke point of the global economy. No country can impact the economic health of the world more than Iran. Iran is aware of its power and is gently making the world aware that it's a power. Iran has been careful not to say that they are a world power or superpower. They have chosen to refer to themselves as a regional power. Let's examine the other assets contributing to Iran's new status as a global superpower. The Iranian diplomatic language is built on a lexicon full of words espousing equality, cooperation, social justice, fairness, and other ideas that people in the developing world hunger for and people in the developed countries are starting to realize are not as forthcoming in their societies as they once believed. Iran's message is starting to be embraced the world over. This more than any other reason explains the full frontal attack on PressTV in Europe, North America and Northeast Asia. People are listening to the the words of key Iranian officials and are impressed by their apparent wisdom and humanity in a world where Western leaders have shown their naked disregard for international law, human suffering and blatant double standards. Iran makes the West extremely nervous because Iran is rising at the very moment that their society is in visible decline. Many believe that Iran has allies in Russia and China, but this is a misconception; Iran is too powerful to ignore, but too powerful to leave unrestrained. This is why Russia and China speak in favor of Iran, but vote for UN and other sanctions against Iran. These two countries can not afford a weak Iran, but fear a unrestrained and powerful Iran. The moment when economic collapse hits the Western economies is the moment when Iran's status as a world superpower will become obvious to everyone. The United States of America or NATO will either declare all out war or will be too weak to maintain its presence in countless countries around the world. If the latter proves the case than a void will be present that must be filled. The terms that Iran offers will be ideal for countries seeking independence and self reliance. So, the countdown is on. In a matter of months, not years, it will be an open fact that Iran is the new world superpower, right?

Description: I had a pair of false eyelashes on my bedside table a week ago, and a day or two later I noticed one of them was on the ground and the other was gone. I was thinking my cat knocked them off but I never found the other one. Today he's been trying to hack something up, and I was thinking that it might be the fake eyelashes. He's eaten weird things before like tape and once he ate my rubber LIVESTRONG bracelet off my arm when i was sleeping, and he coughed those up. But I was wondering what I should do, since its eyelashes. Do you think its gonna be harder for him since they're thin "hairs" with mascara on them.. Will he be able to cough it up, or should i take him to a vet, anything? Also its not the little individual eyelashes that you glue on, they were the normal ones like this : http://www.likemyhealth.com/images/2/health_901187-lu-027.jpg

Description: its ok law passes for them to do this can lie and barrow money to get money, I say NO.. i dont agree and cant understand how health officials and government have this right to decide ...its sick.. why stop population growth on your agenda.. i mean 15 really 17 i can understand 15 your to young to decide to choke if you want.. Maybe a idealistic point of view but a 15 year old when i have a 5 year old girl is idiotic and sorry kids who have answered saw your profiles im a adult asking and have a high school diploma years ago and college.. but beyond your knowledge to be able to hide fact your having sex and might get prego.. using your kids analogy these days is wrong if you cant show ID your stuck. maybe a lesson of kids of raising kids will finally slap u in face when comment on this.. ohh fyi answer 2 read the question again it says 15 maybe learn to read before u answer and clearly stated if 17 ok at least your a adult and can make that decision on your own .

Description: Its 2 oclock in. The morning and my cat just choked/ threw up a shoelace . Now hes shivering so i fed him. I cant go to the vet cause it is not open

Description: A few tips would be nice, please.

Description: Okay, nearly directly after I asked if I could get a dog my parents surprised me with a "surprise rabbit." I love her already, and her name is Poppishila. It was originally going to be Poppy, after me, but that didn't work out well. We need to name our pets unique names. Anyway, a week after today, we are going to go on vacation to Mexico, and rabbits/small dogs/cats are allowed on planes. I begged and begged, and eventually they agreed we should take Poppishila, but that didn't work out either. They began to realize it would cost money, and being frugal, didn't exactly like it. Boarding her would cost more, but they also need to find a pet-allowed hotel, and said rabbits don't travel well. Give me advice to sway them, plz, and tell me if rabbits DO travel well. Sometimes they lie to get their point across, like how rabbits can choke on rocks the size of your fist. This made me remove my marble rock from her cage, and it turns out that I was an idiot for believing ANYTHING COULD SWALLOW SOMETHING THAT BIG....other than a snake...

Description: I want to make for my rats tiny little cookies made from bananas,oatmeal and ingridients from their food from the pet shop.

Description: I have to do this health skit in less than two weeks, and I have no script. I just need some suggestions. So far, it's about three people — a person choking, her acquaintance and a health teacher. It starts off when the health teacher is teaching the class about rescue breathing, and two girls decided to use their health period as a means to pass notes during class. The two girls do this by ridiculing their classmates. I've gathered some ideas, but it would be helpful if you gave me some really nice suggestions.

Description: well. m 30 wks pregnant. i had severe cough for past 2 months which has subside with antiallergic medicines. but now i feel pain in my throat as if something is choking it and have pain in swallowing. also the problem of gingivitis keeps on re occurring. i got my scaling done but of no use.. i just dont know how to get relief..

Description: It would be the start to a real recovery. Then he could tell Dirty Harry to let congress vote on a budget that will cut government spending and reduce corporate taxes to zero if need be. This would be much better than being a dirt bag socialist who is transforming America and give us hope for the future. Obama would be transformed into a real American or at least one who thinks like a real American. Really Micheal, Obama Care has not even started yet and the poor have coverage under government programs. For all those with private health care, you'll see your premiums go up 80% in '14. I don't really care about Obama looking foolish as long as he does the right thing.

Description: I feel cynical. I don't feel like myself anymore. I am not determined to do anything anymore, I don't know who and who not to trust. I get bored with everything and everyone so easily. It feels like the world is caving in on me. I compare myself to others and I crave for material things such as clothes, shoes, and accessories. I've had sex before, but not with the guy I love. By the way i'm 15. I feel like no guy will ever want to have sex with me EVER. The guy I love more than anything in this world has a girlfriend, but he has told me he still loves me and will always be there, but he does have feelings for his girlfriend. I know he still wants to be with me, but his girlfriend is sorta crazy as hell just like me. He and I had a 2 in a half year going to three year "thing." I lied to him, but came clean, he forgave me, and now he's gone. All he wanted to do was figure me out. I pushed him away. I keep leading people on, stop talking to my old friends... I'm trying in school yet I'm doing terrible. I've fought my mom before and it bought us closer, but I still feel bad. I miss my sisters, my REAL dad... My mom's getting married... A guy choked my mom, but I had to lie or else he would have to face serious consequences... My mom felt bad for him... While writing this I almost teared up... I feel like I have nobody... I feel empty. I put up fronts during the day... cry once every blue moon... Don't get me wrong though I still have fun when I'm with my friends. All I want to do is make my mom proud... make myself proud, prove people wrong about me. I feel fast... as in I shouldn't have done some things til I was older. I feel used by people. I feel like If i speak my mind i'll be judged. I smell... My hair isn't long enough... I am interested in the study of Civics and leadership organizations. I feel like no one understands me or is going through the same thing. When i'm older I would like to attend Mankato State University, Hamline University, or North Dakota State. I imagine living the american dream even though I am an African American. I dream of Saturdays with my girls and my boyfriend/fiance/husband, and school and work on the weekdays. I want to work out, but I keep procrastinating. One minute I'm happy the next I'm mad the next i'm sad. i'm not looking for an exact answer... I guess i'm just looking to see if anyone might know what i'm going through, feeling, or whats wrong with me or if I'm missing anything. If you have negative comments keep them to yourself please. Thanks! p.s it would also be great if a doctor or therapist of whatever responded or a teen that may understand. Thanks again!

Description: i have weird fits that are like panic attacks,i have similar symptoms like I hyper ventilate and feel like I cant breathe, rapid heartbeats, I feel dizzy, dyspnea, some trembling, fear of losing control and going crazy, choking, faintness, and altered reality. but then I have other symptoms that are not like panic attacks I become seriously violent and uncontrollable, I literally roll around on the floor thrashing like i have epilepsy or a seizure,I want to kill myself, and try to hit my head on the wall and im crying uncontrollably and yelling at the top of my lungs. also it goes on for about 30+ minutes and only stops by just winding down and then taking a pill. what causes it is also different from a panic attack it doesn't come on from anxiety but me being like angry and upset. if I do a bad job in a game, or get in a fight with someone. I know it sounds stupid and is hard to understand but that's what causes it. ive been getting them for like 3 years now and it used to be over me forgetting homework. I totally stopped getting them but now im still getting them rarely even though i just had 2 back to back. so just want to know is this just an extreme panic attack, or a mix of a panic attack and something, or something else entirely? Can anyone help me? Thanks in advance

Description: My mother is a complete psycho, and I hate her so much! I want to f*cking kill her. That's how bad I hate her, and I hate so much that if she died I wouldn't even care. I'm being so blunt, honest about it. She told me that I was a mistake, and I know I am. I'm not stupid! She failed to raise me and by her neglect I know that I was a mistake. The doctor told her to kill me at birth, she say's she loves her coat and other things then me. She say's I love my favorite coat, more then I love you. She's like I wish I choked you at birth, killed you when I had the chance too! She say's I'm ungrateful but she's selfish, only cares about herself. She never taught me how to drive! My sister/ her ex husband did at the age of 24 yrs old. I need to see the doctor tomorrow, she won't even get it notarized from the bank bc I don't have a bank account, neither does my father. So I have to depend on her because she banks at this place. I just got out of the shower to get ready, got dressed. I didn't even say anything... Yesterday, I asked her about it. I'm so sick of being depending on others to take care of me. I'm 29 yrs old, and I'm way passed my due, and I should be loved and treated with respect. She's bickering, this is everyday. Everyday.. she's bickering over the dumbest things. She puts my father before me, my brother and sister are doing better then me. They know how to drive, have much experience with life. I get out of the shower, she's talking smack about me for no reason, my dad's sticking up for her. She's saying I'm not taking you to the bank, and I'm tired. She's watching me niece but yesterday she say's I'll bring my grand baby with me. She say's one thing, does another. I'm fighting with her, and I'm talking to my dad and he's telling me to sh*t the f*ck up, that's it me with the problem. I didn't even say anything to her at all! She likes to make up stories, picks fights with me. She's seriously mentally sick. My father say's well things change, and I told him you don't even care about me. I'm a neglected child! I tell you I need things done, you always push me to the side. You don't even care about how I feel, only care about yourself. He say's well.. your mom is fixing me food, and I'm getting ready for work. I'm like, exactly! You don't care about me. All you care about is yourself, mom. You don't even care about your kids. You resent us!! U use me for money, and he knows I have a disability. So. Why not take advantage over that? I don't understand things, and I'm ignorant to knowing. Due.. to the fact he never taught me, raised be right. He say's well things happen, and I'm like the bank isn't even far and it's not a big deal. I hate broken promises! He say's well a car breaks down, things happen. That's just life! He say's will just do it on friday. I'm like... what if she doesn't want to take me to the bank again, that's tomorrow. My doctor appointment is tomorrow. Then what? I don't have any medical insurance, and I'm going to a free health clinic! I'm crying because I'm just so fed up with the B.S and people's big egos. Everyone puts them self first before me. Selfish, conceited! My mother say's well you never cared when I had surgery, and I said I did. It's just my father wouldn't let me take care of her. He's controlling as well! So.. why resent me, punish me for his doings. I'm innocent, didn't even do anything wrong!

Description: Alright, so im doing a big research project, and there is lots online about how we are impacting the ocean, from oil spills, to cars and cruise ships, noise pollution, agriculture, carbon emissions and all the inbetween, but a large part of the project is HOW these things impact BOTH the ocean and us so who in the ocean is impacted? I got the reefs, the fish...what else? And how are we as humans impacted?

Description: but i dont want him getting hurt... what would be the safest thing for him to go into? and how will it support our family? (or at least get us by)

Description: But the United Auto Workers Retiree Medical Trust, which covers 806,000 autoworkers, has joined others in asking federal regulators for an exemption. Boeing, which has 405,000 employees and dependents subject to the fee, has also requested an exemption. Boeing says the Obamacare fee will add $25 million in costs on top of the already $2.5 billion the company spends each year on health benefits. Health and Human Services (HHS) denied the request by Boeing and others but said the $63 levy would not affect the thousands of retired autoworkers whose primary coverage is Medicare. Still, says HHS, it will not categorically exempt employees in court-structured benefit plans. http://www.humanevents.com/2013/03/22/unions-congress-choke-on-obamacare/

Description: 21st century atheists like their predecessors, take the doctrines of materialism to be established scientific facts not just assumptions. For more than 200 years, materialists have promised that science will eventually explain everything in terms of physics and chemistry. Despite all the achievements of science and technology, materialism is now facing a credibility crunch that was unimaginable in the 20th century All of it's 10 essential doctrines have been superseded. The materialist agenda was once liberating but is now de-pressing and dogmatic. Thise who believe in it are alienated from their own experience; they are cut off from all religious traditions; and they are prone to suffer from a sense of disconnection and isolation. Meanwhile, the power unleashed by scientific knowledge is causing the mass extinction of other species, and endangering our own. New discoveries are more likely to happen if we venture off the well trodden paths of conventional research, and if we open up questions that have been surpressed by dogmas and taboos. As the sciences set free themselves from the constrictions of materialism, many new possibilities arise. And many of them raise new possibilities for dialogues with religious traditions. Statistical research has shown that people who attend religious services regularly tend to live longer, have better health and are les prone to depression than those who do not. Also, the practices of prayer and meditation often have benficial effects on health and longeivity. How do these practices work? Are they pshycological or sociological?. Nothing changes very fast when big institutions are involved: there are now more than 7 million scientific researchers worldwide, The delusion that science has already answered, or is even close to answering the fundamental questions chokes off the spirit of enquiry. The realisation that science does not know the fundamental answers leads to humility rather than arrogance, and openes rather than dogmatism. Much remains to be discovered and rediscovered, including wisdom. Do you honestly think materialism is not facing a crisis of credibility right now? moosepoop, there have been zero advances in non materialism since it became the dominant ideology in the late 19th century Tzeench - para phsycholgy is much less likely to be influenced as over 98% of the reaseach is done double blind , compared to around 10% in the other sciences. thunder - where is it copied and pasted from and where did i claim it as my own? But recent research has revealed unexpected problems at the heart of physics, cosmology, biology, medicine and psychology. The sciences are being constricted by assumptions that have hardened into dogmas. Should science be a belief-system, or a realm of enquiry? science would be better off without its dogmas: freer, more interesting and more fun. wombatfreaks - check this out, to learn all about materialism and how it is built on assumptions and faiths, this is what dawkins, hitchens etc use to justify their atheism http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OqaATPAnTZQ Surely being passive and open minded to the possibilites is better than being closed minded and dogmatic Steve? Sh00fly - should we really stick to an approach where ALL of it's essential doctrines have been supersed? It seems very dogmatic and pompous to do so. Tzeench - Parapsychology is only pseudoscience because materialism is the dominant, dogmatic approach Steve - having ALL of its essential doctrine superseded is not some vague implication of being 'broken.' Sh00fly - why would i give a well thought out reply to someone who is insulting? Koenig, H. G. (2008). Medicine, religion and health: Where science and spirituality meet. West Conshohocken, PA: Templeton Foundation Press. 3. Sloan, R. P., and Bagiella, E. (2002). Claims about religious involvement and health outcomes. Annals of Behavioral Medicine, 24, 14-21. 4. Paul-Labrador, M. D. et al. (2006). Effects of a randomized controlled trial of transcendental meditation on components of the metabolic syndrome in subjects with coronary heart disease. Archives of Internal Medicine, 166: 1218-1224. 5. Snoep, L. (2008). Religiousness and happiness in three nations. Journal of Happiness Studies, 9, 207-211. 6. Zuckerman, P. (2008). Society without God: What the least religious nations can tell us about contentment. New York: New York University Press. Also here are the 10 doctrines of materialism, which have all been superseded, a scientist would know this. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Ni4_6YJPM8

Description: After work I bought some food to bring home for dinner. I got two McDoubles plain for my fiance, nuggets for our son, a large drink and fries to share and and new Premium chicken McWrap for myself. I've never had any problems with my food especially for my own work but that being said, my 2 1/2 year old son nearly choked on a piece of bone that was in his nuggets. He coughed a few times to get it out of his throat then spit it out. I didn't know what it was until i asked him why he spit his food. He said "caca mommy it's caca" I was about to say "no not caca" because he like nuggets usually, then i saw what he meant when he said "caca" there was bout an inch long piece of bone in in the chewed up nugget. I don't know what to do because this is my place of work but, if my son hadn't been the smart little boy he is and got it out of his mouth, it could of done some serious damage. Now I'm second guessing getting anything. So I'm stuck between a rock and and a hard place. On one hand I have my job that I for the most part love, great ppl good environment; on the other hand I have my son that I love with all my heart, but was put in danger by the company I work for. I want to make the best decision but I don't wanna loose my job in the process. I don't want necessarily want to sue them, but I don't know who to contact and express my concern. I called but our floor manager kinda just waved it off, like "yeah okay well you work here I can't do anything for you" not the best response. Especially when it's not just me and my son. I realize my son was lucky but the next child could just as easily not be.

Description: I had scoliosis and spondylolisthesis in 6th grade. I wore a back brace for 6 months and the pain went away so we figured it was fixed and never went back to a doctor to check on it. Now I am in 10th grade and for the past 4-5 months I have been dealing with panic attacks, anxiety and depression. I would get panic attacks over everything. I always feel like I am choking and am always worried about my health. Over the same few months, my back pain has returned an worsened. I've looked at my back in the mirror and it doesn't LOOK curved. I randomly loose feeling/have pain in my right leg and sometimes in my butt. I heard something about how it can affect your breathing by crushing your ribs/organs and every since I have been getting dizzy and having a LOT of trouble breathing. I am so scared. I have just been diagnosed with IBS and I'm just tired of this. I don't want my back pain to come back. Does anyone have any advice - without scaring me???

Description: Help with Socially Awkwardness? I've always been shy around people I don't know until they get to know me pretty well. I mean, everyone is generally like this, except normally it usually takes within a couple weeks for people to get pretty comfortable around each other. However, tt takes me about a year if not more (not exaggerating) to break out of the shyness. I would like to make new friends, but I am really awkward around people...Plus when I make conversation, I am usually not funny and people just label me as weird or boring and they don't want to make friends with me. And the fact that when I talk I stutter a lot. (I don't have any disorder or anything. I just get really nervous and my mind draws blank and I start choking on words) Any suggestions? By the way, I am a junior in high school.

Description: I'm so sad and need some advice! My baby is 11 weeks old and she is exclusively breast fed. I followed some advice from our doctor and I think I'm losing my milk supply. My baby kept choking while nursing and I'm pretty sure it's because I had oversupply. She had other symptoms too such as a bout of greenish bowel movements indicating she was only getting foremilk due to the oversupply. I would also leak sometimes and feel quite full a lot of the times. So my doctor advised to only feed on one breast at each feeding and to avoid pumping unless I felt really really engorged. So that's what I started doing. Beyond that at night (we co sleep) she sleeps on my right hand side and I nurse her lying down when she wakes up to eat at night so when I nurse her at night, most of the time I would just nurse on my right side out of convenience (I now realize that was a huge mistake) neglecting my left side at times. Anyways I think I'm now losing my milk supply! Before this past week she had started going longer between feedings, around 3 hours during the day and was doing 5-6 hour stretches at night. I feed on demand but she was pretty good at setting her own schedule. The past week or so though she started reverting back to her newborn ways and has started feeding every 1-2 hours during the day and every 2-3 hours at night. I thought maybe she was just going through a growth spurt but I started to realize that she wasn't swallowing like she used to when feeding, especially on the left side. When nursing on the left side she would look up at me with her eyes wide with a worried look on her face almost and would suck so hard but I wouldn't hear swallowing. Maybe a few swallows but that was it. It's better on the right side but it dawned on me that she wasn't choking anymore (obviously that's a good thing but it was just another indicator that maybe my milk supply was dwindling). So, last night the realization came to me that perhaps she wasn't getting enough to eat and maybe that's why she was eating more often so I pumped (I have a very good Medela pump) to see what was going on and I didn't even get half an ounce out of my left side! It was barely enough to cover the bottom of the bottle :( it was like little drops whereas before when I would pump I would get 2-3 ounces within around 10 minutes and my milk would spray out forcefully. I'm now realizing that maybe it wasn't necessarily oversupply but perhaps just an overactive letdown and I might have depleted the milk I had. I have no idea what to do. I was really hoping to breastfeed for the first year of her life. I love it so much and I really don't want to give it up. I've heard of people's milk supplies just drying up. Is that possible or will it come back if I keep feeding her on demand? Is it possible for one breast to make more milk than the other? Because if that's the case, worst case scenario, my right side seems decent... Not like before but better than the left side at least. Any thoughts and advice are greatly appreciated!

Description: (B having started choking because of something which A had nothing to do with). A and B have no special relationship. Are there any cases to support your answer? I am asking because if A then goes on to make B's situation worse by accident, I want to know if they could have committed the tort of negligence.

Description: I'm going to see a doctor about this in a couple weeks but I'd like to hear some opinions.. So I'm a very healthy 20 year old female, I'm in shape and take care of myself. I'm pretty sure I have a deviated septum, I almost always have a stuffy nose and I snore every single night. Well the other night my husband said he woke up in the middle of the night (because of my snoring) as he was trying to fall asleep he said I just stopped breathing so he woke me up really fast and he said I sorta like made a choking noise but then I started breathing again... It makes me scared to sleep! Is a deviated septum related to sleep apnea in any way? How serious is this? Again, I'll be asking the doctor but I'd love to hear some thoughts. Thanks.

Description: Okay so Ive had the passion to become a firefighter since Highschool. In Highschool took R.O.P classes FireTech, First Responder, and also E.M.T and passed the E.M.T course But never made it to take the Registry before it expired. I never completed that shortterm goal due to poor choices. I was young and ignorant. At 18 I started using drugs/ and getting into trouble. Ive gotten arrested twice for one assault and battery and the other assualt with a deadly weapon but both times the charges were dropped, First one i got arrested for I was defending my girlfriend because her brother was choking her after an argument they had, and I got into an altercation with him as well as his moms boyfriend. The assault with a deadly weapon got dropped because luckily there was a video of it proving my innocence. So, I think its fair to say I havent had the best luck. Ive Also got a marijuana ticket when I was 18 which also got dropped off of my record. Perfect driving record though. lol. I also have Tattoos visible on my forearm. Im scared my honesty during the mental evalution with scare departments away considering Ive done alot of bad stuff but I know I have to be 100 percent honest and own up to things. I have grown up alot since then and have changed my life around for the best. The gym and maintaining fitness and health is what i have turned everything towards. I have become both physically and mentally stronger. I Am currently taking my fire courses at Santa Ana college, and planning on retaking EMT course this summer. Bottom line is I know I Have made poor choices in the past and know that through most departments eyes I am just going to keep repeating these patterns of immaturity, but I guess im looking for some reassurance with facts to see my actual chances. Fire Fighting is my Dream and I wont give up on it. Thanks for your time.

Description: In the hospital i was feeding her 30ml but she was only taking 15-25 would barely ever take the 30.. health nurse now wants me to feed her 2oz every 3 hours but sometimes she wont take it she could only take 15-22ml , then if she only takes a small amount she wants more within 1 or 2 hours it takes an hour or more to feed her so i only get 2 hours sleep if i'm lucky between her feeds while ago i fed her at 4.10pm but only drank 22mls and took till 5.10 and she was crying for bottle at 6.30 and she drank the 2oz but when i put her back in moses basket she wouldn't rest so i heated up another bottle and she only took a drop out of it shes due at 9.30 but she only settled at 8.00 i cant wind her she wont bring it up and i'm scared when i put her in the Moses basket she might puke or choke because she hasn't been winded can someone please help me or any ideas what i could do with the feeding and winding and i have to wake her every 3 hours because she dont wake herself so shes actually sleeping while i'm feeding her which that is why its taken so long HELP !

Description: My son is 2 and a half years old. He bites and chews on everything. I can't seem to get him out of the habit. I constantly tell him not too..he stops, then as soon as I turn around he is back to it. I feel like I'm constantly buying new sippy cups! He chews them until they leak. I can't buy the silicone ones, if I do they last 2 days at the most. I buy the hard ones and they may last 2 weeks. It's terrible, sippy cups arnt cheap. I don't feel like he is ready for a regular cup, but I don't know what to do. If I buy the cheap packs of sippy cups they break 5x faster. What can I do to break him of this habit? Or should I try transferring him to a regular cup? Is there any type of sippy cup meant for these problems? I also have the problem of him with the pacifier. He is still using it, only during the day though (mostly mornings) because I'm scared he is going to bite through it at night and choke. I trying to wean him off it. It's hard though because when I take his away he throws a fit, and goes and gets his sisters out of her mouth and puts it in his own. Should I just try to take them both off of the pacifier? My daughter sleeps with it at night, and uses it alot during the day. She is 3 months old. I would rather not, but if I have to I will. Thanks

Description: ion: I need a lawyers advice i really need help .? I don't know what to do about this that has happen to me today,My name is Crystal i live in texas i been a home provider for 15 years never hardly missed a day 7 days a week, i also got an award of completing 15 years.I love my job especially if its bringing food to the table for my family.Its an emotional job also cause i help and work with elderly clients ever day. I spend time with them for awhile getting to know them, but it comes the time when there no longer with us.To make this story short I have been taking care of this couple for about 2 years.Ive gotten to know them very well sadly her husband pasted i tried to comfort her but it was just to much.So her daughter came down to town to stay with her mother to comfort her in time of need.After some time I gotten to know her daughter also,but there was just something i really wasn't suiting well with and that was her daughter smoking,inside the house or if she was smoking outside she would leave the door open letting the fumes of the cigarette come inside i suffer from breathing problems and ash -ma for awhile now.And with the fumes from the cigarette it has made my health so bad i would wake up coughing throwing up,i had a prescribed breathing machine from my lung doctor.Ive tried telling her,and my company about the situation but know one would understand, what i was going threw time passed and i got worse i would wake up now choking in my sleep and soon ending up in the hospital.Enough was enough my kids said if we all have to work more hours to make ends meet we will, but we are not gonna lose are mom.I took a medical leave for 2months to get better the company was ok for me to take the time cause i went in person to let them know and they seen how bad i was looking they told me get better you need it, I let the company know that i would like a different Client they said okay.I was diagnose with laryngitis i been taking my medicine and my breathing treatm

Description: I don't know what to do about this that has happen to me today,My name is Crystal i live in texas i been a home provider for 15 years never hardly missed a day 7 days a week, i also got an award of completing 15 years.I love my job especially if its bringing food to the table for my family.Its an emotional job also cause i help and work with elderly clients ever day. I spend time with them for awhile getting to know them, but it comes the time when there no longer with us.To make this story short I have been taking care of this couple for about 2 years.Ive gotten to know them very well sadly her husband pasted i tried to comfort her but it was just to much.So her daughter came down to town to stay with her mother to comfort her in time of need.After some time I gotten to know her daughter also,but there was just something i really wasn't suiting well with and that was her daughter smoking,inside the house or if she was smoking outside she would leave the door open letting the fumes of the cigarette come inside i suffer from breathing problems and ash -ma for awhile now.And with the fumes from the cigarette it has made my health so bad i would wake up coughing throwing up,i had a prescribed breathing machine from my lung doctor.Ive tried telling her,and my company about the situation but know one would understand, what i was going threw time passed and i got worse i would wake up now choking in my sleep and soon ending up in the hospital.Enough was enough my kids said if we all have to work more hours to make ends meet we will, but we are not gonna lose are mom.I took a medical leave for 2months to get better the company was ok for me to take the time cause i went in person to let them know and they seen how bad i was looking they told me get better you need it, I let the company know that i would like a different Client they said okay.I was diagnose with laryngitis i been taking my medicine and my breathing treatments every day,I decided to go bak cause i was feeling better and needed to really catch up with my bills ,my 2months were up as of 4/22/2013 i went today I went to the company to let them know.When my supervisor told me that i had been terminated from the company, i was shocked i asked why he said the client's daughter i worked for said i had stoled coins and other things, I was extremelymly upset it felt like a dream i was trapped in but sadly it wasn't, i told him you've known me for 15 years i would never ever commit such a crime no matter how the economy is or how desperate i needed money.Me and her daughter had never had problems other than her smoking but as arguinging we never did.There is no proof stating or showing i did this they company took her word for it and terminated me and reported it to the state. im at the ferge of loosing my house and so much more,i really shocked about this can i take legal actions.

Description: This has been going on this past moth, mostly on the weekend ill stay up for like 2 hours past 10 sometimes i ll go to bed at 3. but i started feeling like i couldn't take a really deep breath and i was hyperventilating. i told my mom during this time and she says to shut up no big deal and i looked it up and it says I'm having these panic attacks, my mom did tell me to use her inhaler but i was to afraid. what if this isn't panic attacks what if it's serious, it keeps me from sleeping, i feel like i cant swallow at all sometimes my mom said to not tell no one or they'll think I'm pysco or something but i really don't no where to turn. I'm a 13 year old girl anyway and also it mostly happens when I'm just lying there watching pointless youtube videos. my mom also thinks i have a mental problem cuz of this

Description: Hi guys!. I am a female of the age of 31, and up until now have been a very boring, medically healthy person. Have only beer been into hospital twice for the birth of my beautiful children (then was out the same day!). Recently (over the past 8 weeks or so) I have been experiencing sleep apenea and have noticed my heart beating irregurly. Waking up with a 'jump' is simply dreadful, and due to this I am always tired due to the lack of sleep. Migraines have been in my family for generations, and I have suffered from them for many years and have always managed them without any medication as I feel that the side effects of some medication can be worse than the symptom. My migraines have become worse however, and I have experienced many times where I have had the feeling of being unable to breath. Have ended up in hospital many times recently. The results from test apparently showed that I had 100% oxygen within my chest and that it was just a migraine related panic attack. I had a really bad attack this week and was persuaded to go to my gp. I am now being bombarded with appointments for fasting blood tests, a chest xray, and an ecg. Now I am REALLY worried. Feel very much like ' I would rather not know if there is something wrong' and just try to manage the best I can. I know I maybe rambling, and I hope I have explained well why I am in a 'pickle'. My GP said -after typing at his computer for a while after examining me that it could be my Thyroid? if this is the case why the chest xray and fasting blood tests? :(. Heeeelp!...xx

Description: The National Institutes of Health have found that 50% of cases of Domestic Violence in heterosexual relationships are mutually violent, and that of the remaining 50%, the only violent partner was the female partner 70% of the time. At (5+8)/(5+3), this means that 12 female to 8 male, or 3f/2m, or 60% of all perpetrators of Domestic Violence are female. Women make up 60% of those hospitalized for serious injuries by DV, men 40%, which is why absolutely nothing is in place to help male victims. They are less likely to be severely injured by partner aggression. We can calculate how much less this way. 3/5 victims is male. 2/5 severely injured victims are male. So 3/5ths of total victims make up 2/5 of hospitalized victims, which gives us 0.66 2/5 victims is female. 3/5 severely injured victims are female. Same calculation gives us 1.5. So 1.5/0.66 to calculate the how much more likely a female victim is to be hospitalized. Women experiencing DV are therefore roughly 2.3 times more likely to be hospitalized than male victims are. Therefore we can conclude that DV against women is more likely to be severe. This does NOT, however, make the issue of how violent women are in society, and how utterly ignored this issue is, irrelevant. Afterall, 40% of hospitalized victims are still male. And the majority of total victims are male. Female perpetrators are VERY rarely caught or punished, and there is no social stigma against them at all. They are actually more likely to receive sympathy than scorn for their crime. This is in large part because feminism actually strongly buys into patriarchal stereotypes regarding violence in the most hypocritical way possible. This also leaves very many children in the hands of violent mothers. Not to argue that they should be left with violent fathers, but rather that female violence is being utterly ignored thanks to the Women's lobby and the pervasive Duluth worldview obscuring the reality despite several hundred academic studies that have showed the problem I would really like some feminist thoughts on this issue. Here is the study. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1854883/ @ Princess: One study!!?? Here is a list of 200 different studies from all over the world that have found similar results. http://divorcesupport.about.com/gi/o.htm?zi=1/XJ&zTi=1&sdn=divorcesupport&cdn=people&tm=4113&f=00&su=p284.13.342.ip_&tt=2&bt=0&bts=0&zu=http%3A//www.csulb.edu/~mfiebert/assault.htm Is that enough for you? Of course not. Nothing will ever be enough. @ Pretty: Your second two sources (sagepub) are inaccessible, so that's kind of useless. The first one supports my point. Where are you getting the 7 times figure? I've been looking for a figure but most data completely ignores male victims of intimate partner homicide. The only source I've found is this one. http://www.opdv.state.ny.us/statistics/nationaldvdata/intparthom.html Which states that women are murdered at roughly twice the rate, not 7 times. @Pretty: I appreciate the sources. Now, as men make up 3/4 of ALL homicides, 5% of men is equivalent to 15% of the female death total in raw numbers. Which makes women 2.33 times as likely to be murdered by intimate partners, not 5 times. I can't grasp why your source cannot do this basic math and claims 5 times instead.

Description: I'm not proud of this, & now I'm very worried. I caught my boyfriend in bed naked with another girl, just finishing having sex. He knew we were meant to be getting together that night. I'd texted him, and called but no answer. I was concerned so I called his Mom (yes she lives with him due to poor health) and she said he was home. I told her I was coming over - I was actually worried that he may have got super drunk and passed out. I walked inhis bedroom and they were there naked as can be. He staggered up after a few moments of shock. She started laughing saying "who is this then?" with the most awful triumphant look on her face. She made no attempt to cover up and in fact sat back so I could obviously see everyone. She gave me a spiteful look like " see I'm here and you are not" and was laughing the whole time. He shoved me out of the room and outside. I was very upset and never expected to find anything like that.I still can't believe what I saw. I'd just seen him 5 hours earlier and we kissed, said I love you and see you later. Anyhow, we got into it and he basically had nothing to say. I began to leave then came back and slapped his face hard then went to my car. Then I changed my mind and went back to the house, I was so upset and yes angry. His Mom let me in, yes she did, and I went back to his room, opened the door turned on the light. She began to laugh again, saying something sarcastic to him " I guess you didn't lock the door after all" -he did but his Mom let me in - yes she knew what was going on. Anyhow I lost it and got on the bed and pulled her hair down saying "what are you laughing at?" Anyhow I called her a few names and then me and him went back outside. There he said he was sorry he loved be all the bullshit you can imagine. I heard the garage door open, adn I went in there. She was getting ready to leave. She came out laughing saying "well you two better have a talk". I again grabbed her hair and slapped her face. I'm not proud but honestly her nasty shameless tone and looks would have driven most people too it, I can imagine. I've never walked into such a disgusting scene either. Anyhow he made me stop and she left, yelling something, don't remember what' as she left. I started arguing with him, a lot of " how could you do that, who is she, why did you do that etc etc. I was crying and very upset. I hit him again and he kept saying I'm a jerk give me my medicine, basically wanting me to hit him - he really did give me consent and encouraged me to hit him. I slapped him again across the face hard and then he got violent with me. He shoved me across the garage, picked me back up, threw me across the hood of the car outside, began choking me while keeping my face on the ground pressed into his motorbike. He was twisting my arm back, grabbed my hair shoved my hair back. The only thing he didn't do was actually hit me. This whole time, I said stop you are hurting me stop. He stopped eventually and stood there. I took off and went home. I had bruises and cuts to my face, to my neck, bruises on my arms, a cut knee, bumps on the top of my head. I could not go to work for 4 days because I didn't want anyone to see. As soon as I got home he texted me said he has never done anything so horrible and he is sorry. He has been violent in the past 0 he threw a show and keys at me- hard - and he shoved me a couple of times hard to the floor. I forgave him those times. Anyhow, he ended up with a black eye from the first slap I did - yes it was a slap hard and I wonder if the inside of my palm area is what got him like that. I never saw her, but apparently she told him her mouth was swollen and she couldn't use her jaw properly. She also told him she filed a police report but did not press charges. If she was so badly hurt why didn't the police come talk to me or him? Anyhow, he is very concerned that she may still press charges and he is trying to keep her 'placated' to 'protect' me. I am worried she may press charges - she looked very trashy and she acted that way too. I know looks aren't everything but her demeanor was very spitful, not at all concerned she had been caught. I spoke with him 1 times and he texted me this info about the report to the police. IDK what to think or do. I hate the idea of this hanging over my head, where she might press charges anytime. I do think she deserved it - really I do. He did too. I did not deserve to see that or be beat like that.We'd been together for 18 months, were as involved in each other's life as possible without actually living in the same place. We both have kids, atogether usually 5x a week. He broke my heart that night. I still can't believe what I saw. It was the most horrible thing I could have imagined. I don't want to press charges against him. I loved him. And it would make him lose his job. I I was arrested though I would tell exactly what happened and he would be in trouble too. I am mostly concerned with her pressing charges against me though, or just keeping it out there, in effect a type of blackmail. I too would lose my job if this got out. I've never been involved in such an awful mess before. Shoul.d I just go to the police and let them know? What would happen if she did press charges - say a month down the line?

Description: I just turned 19,I moved to iowa last april. I'm almost 5 months pregnant currently by a guy I met 9 months ago who just turned 20 years old himself. I live in iowa, I met him here in my moms apartment complex parking lot in 2012 a couple days after he had moved here from mississippi. We were both new to iowa, long story short we ended up becoming cool friends, soon after we started texting everyday an in august he became homeless an mom ended up taking him in and he raped me an took my virginty in september because he wanted to have sex an I kept just doing oral with him... I ended up leaving iowa after that happend, and gbeginningk to chicago where i'm from and stayed there for 2 months because my mom didn't believe me... I ended up pregnant from the rape, and got an abortion in the begining of november. While was in chicago I kept in contact with the guy, and I told him that I was pregnant, he begged me to keep it and he apologized and I forgave him an we started dating again... but I changed my mind and gave him another chance because I really did like him.. I came back home to iowa at the end of november and he was still living wimy mom. He helped me move my stuff back in my moms house, and he moved into my room we started having sex, and we didn't use condoms...he would tell me he loved me, and that he wanted me to have his baby... so December came and left anhavingot pregnant and found out Iforward weeks pregnant again in january... but his attitude started changing he became controlling and I started smoking weed heav y because he smokes it so he started havng me smoke with him....fast foward to march I was 3 months pregnant we were having more fights and he started not coming home and calling me bitches more in arguments, my mom walked in on him beating me and started yelling a week later she put him out, he came back for his stuff but the locks were changed so he just didn't come back until the end of march an stopped answering my calls anneighbor's being mean an shut me out because my mom had put him out. So on march 31st I got out the emergency room from spending the night because I was severely dehydrated. I got home and walked to neighbours house where he was staying and asked to speak with an I was rudely told t stand outside while he went an got my boyfriend, once he came outside his first words were to me what do you want bitch? An I said we need to talk, I just got out of the hospital and I have an ultra-sound for the baby coming because i'm turning 4 months in a couple of days apunchedied to walk back in the building an ignored me so I grabbed his arm an said so your just gonna leave me an act like i'm not pregnant? An he called me a bitch an said to leave him alone, an he pucnhed me in the face and I grabbed his hair an started crying saying so your gonna lose your job because you wanna act stupid? And he then got madder an choked me, an pushed me down the stairs to the front of the building... mean while i'm sobbing crying and he walks away saying he's done an he doesn't care because he's about to move into his own apartment which he did days later but now I don't hear from it's like he dropped off the earth when I walked back home to my building I had scrorder an bruising from him hitting me, so my mom called the police and now I have a restraining order against him and theres a warrant out for his arrest so they can serve him with the rappointmentoreder... fast forward to april 4th my birthday he still hasn't been arrdon't so the restraining isn't in affect until they serve him, so later that evening I went to my ultra-sound an ob appiontment and found out that I was having a girl so I text him an told him an he din't respond.. I've tried contacting him on different occasions to update him about our daughter bbeginning just doesn't respond. I even called his mom which I don't even know or ever even talked to who lives in mississippi an left a message telling her everything that has been going on from the begining and she never called me back or anything... Now today is april 17th, I have no job or money and I'm showing with a belly and alone living with my mom while she works an take care of me and he doesn't want anything to do with me or our daughter and I feel depressed and bad because its all my fault. I need help, advice and others opinions please because I don't know if I should give her his last name or mine once she's born september 16th? If I should eventually drop the reeveryoneorder later once things calm down an work it out with him for our daughters sake? Or just move on an never speak to him again an just put him on child support because he does work? I need everyone's help please because my mom is my support system and my therapist an they think I should just forget him completely an move forward an not even say he's the father of my baby

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Description: Okay, so i was given the task of writing a piece of creative writing, consisting of around 800 words and with the theme 'Tension to Relaxation' meaning a moment of tension and panic, and then the calm that follows. My story is about a rape victim whom can't move on from the incident, and her only way to deal with it is talking to an imaginary mental health professional. Could someone give me a little guidance and point out any issues before i hand it in? I'm working hard for a good grade so i really want to impress him with this :) Adele Year nine 2013 Creative writing piece 'Tension to relaxation' Title: Four years eleven months and nine days. ‘He will come back for me’ I tell her again and again, my fingernails digging deeper into my sweating palms, leaving tiny crescent moons in my tight fists. I rock backwards and forwards, seething. My head is shaking and even the tears are too repulsed to surface as I choke myself on bitter, angry sobs despite her attempts to calm me by stroking my arm. I feel every muscle inside my violation of a body tense up in retaliation to the familiar feel of unfamiliar hands. ‘Don’t touch me!’ I scream, I hit, I kick, I cry. How dare she? My own therapist, the one whom is meant to fix me! How could she try to break me like he did? Idiot! You can’t break someone who’s just been broken! I spit out my rage in swear after swear, each curse has less meaning than the last as they merge into meaningless monotonous syllables. The therapy begins its calming effect on me, washing over me like a steady stream of rainwater, guided along a drain pipe. She is growing agitated with my hysterical state but I don’t care, I won’t care; I can’t care. He stole my ability to care when he took what I had reserved for my heart and tarnished it. Dragging it through the mud and tearing it to shreds. I think; I am fifteen years old for the rest of my life, forced to relive every gut wrenching second of abuse. Eleven minutes is all it took, four years eleven months and nine god damn days I have relived those eleven minutes like my worthless life is stuck on endless repeat like some almighty being has jammed the buttons on his comically over sized TV remote. I spit at him to turn off the damned TV and help me to live again. I want to climb up to the prayer burdened skies and tear holes in the clouds to allow my prayers to seep through right into heaven itself, what else could be to blame for my unanswered pleads but thick clouds fogging up gods vision? I am punched into the present. Who am I to judge vision when my only clarity in sight is my hindsight? Perfected through too many what ifs and regrets, and trained through keeping my neck constantly turned, stationing my head over my shoulder; petrified you’ll return. I do this now. Whipping my head about uncontrollably, my heart leaps in to my throat and my chest rises and falls quickly in rage. Spine curved like burned out cigarette ash in the moments before it’s about to fall from the lit butt. Cigarettes play on my mind, a smoke, a drink, a needle; anything just to take off the edge. But I know I can’t, because there’s not enough of me left; If I take off the edge, I’ll fall off entirely. I feel like it’s all I can do to keep from falling off the edge now. Clawing my way back onto land terrified but lulled by the rhythmic oceans in the lowest depths of my mind. Digging my hands into the crumbling ground does nothing but allow grit to gather under my nails as I grit my teeth, sacrificing every ounce of strength to the battle between me and this mental cliff edge. They tell me to let go. They chant, they jeer, they mock, they taunt, they shout! ‘Let go!’ The imaginary voices echo round my head, bouncing of every available surface like a ping pong ball, occupying all available space, crushing me. I reach out for her to save me, take me away from all of this, I cry out hysterically. But it’s no use; she is gone. He fades to nothing more than a faceless memory. I am alone once again in my small empty room, feeling as used as an abandoned trolley lying rusty on a beach, surrounded by the yellowing froth of what once were mighty crashing waves. It’s been four years eleven months nine days and hundreds of sessions and I am frayed like the bootlace on my right shoe; constantly tied, ready to run. Like the fraying cotton of laces I am fragile. Pull one thread and I unravel into a contagion of problems engulfing her. Sadly, she never was. She is just simply a glinting shard of a shattered mind. She is Imaginary.

Description: I'm fifteen and I know something is up with my mental health. For the last several months I've been out of it. You know when you zone out? It's like that but I can't snap back. It's been months and I can't snap back. I'm terrified. I can barely distinguish reality from dreams... its like I can't convince myself things are real. I'm really scared. Has anyone ever had this happen or know what this is? It would mean the world to me if you answered. I don't know what to do. Also, something else has been happening a lot lately. I don't know how to explain it. Say, I'll be watching TV and someone on a show starts talking about choking. I'll instantly feel like I'm choking. Someone starts talking about drowning, suddenly I can't breathe. What is going on? I have anxiety and have suffered from depression several times... could this be something to do with it? Please help me.